Are We the Sum of All Small Moments?
I’ve been thinking about this idea again, that we are the sum of small moments.
Partly because it’s central to What Matters. Partly because I recently sent the updated ebook to friends. And partly because certain ideas don’t stay settled once you live with them long enough.
If we are shaped by small moments, does that mean all of them?
Not just the meaningful ones. Not just the moments of clarity or connection. But the moments of pain. Confusion. Loss. The long stretches where nothing seems to move at all.
It’s tempting to say yes, to treat every moment as equally formative. But I’m no longer sure that’s true.
Some small moments leave a mark because they ask something of us. Others don’t. They arrive, exist briefly, and fade without instruction or lesson. And that doesn’t make them useless.
Painful moments, for example, don’t shape us simply by existing. They shape us because we respond to them, by resisting, enduring, interpreting, or eventually reframing them. Pain reminds us that we are still here. Still engaged. Still part of the world, even when the experience is difficult.
And if I’m honest, I still prefer that option.
When I consider the alternative, numbness, absence, or not being here at all, it clarifies something important. Meaning only becomes visible because contrast exists. The good in life doesn’t float freely; it takes shape because it stands beside struggle, effort, and uncertainty. Over time, we even begin to rank what matters—not everything, but some things.
Friendships are a good example.
As time moves on, some friends grow distant. Some disappear entirely. They’re not always replaced by new people in the same way. Sometimes they’re replaced by memory—by an earlier version of life when they were essential.
That doesn’t mean those relationships failed. It means their work was completed.
What remains isn’t constant presence, but significance.
Then there are the empty moments—the ones that don’t seem to carry meaning at all. No insight. No lesson. No emotional weight. Just space.
For a long time, I thought those moments were gaps to be filled. Now I think they might be doing quiet work of their own. They offer release. Recovery. A pause between chapters. Without them, the rest of life would press too hard, too continuously, to be sustained.
So maybe we aren’t the sum of all small moments in the same way.
Maybe we are shaped by:
the moments that demand response,
the moments that clarify contrast, and
the moments that give us room to rest before the next meaning appears.
Not everything stays with us. Not everything needs to. But what does remain—what continues to echo, quietly becomes part of who we are.
This tension, between what shapes us and what quietly passes, is one of the central threads running through What Matters, a collection of reflections on presence, change, and meaning over time.
And that, I think, is closer to what What Matters has been trying to say all along.
The Selves We Outgrow Without Noticing
Sometimes we don’t outgrow people through conflict or distance. The change happens quietly—almost without noticing—until we realize we’re no longer borrowing our sense of self from the room we’re in. I explore that moment of subtle shift more fully in this reflection, originally published on my Substack, What Matters.
→ Read the full essay on Substack
This quiet sense of change echoes themes I explored more fully in Why Life Stories Change, where identity evolves not through events alone, but through how we reinterpret our past.
Where Happiness Actually Begins
People who consistently help others often seem steadier. Less overwhelmed. Less defeated by setbacks. Not because their lives are easier, but because their attention isn’t fixed entirely on themselves.
That raises an old question. Is the purpose of life to be happy or to help others?
From the beginning, happiness is instinctive. Newborns seek comfort. Warmth. Safety. Joy. They don’t yet understand gratitude or service. They simply receive.
Over time, something shifts. Children begin to recognize that what brings them joy comes through others. Love arrives before understanding. Care is felt before it is explained.
Affection matters. Being seen and supported shapes confidence, resilience, and emotional health. And over a lifetime, a quiet pattern becomes visible: gratitude doesn’t follow happiness. It makes happiness possible.
Gratitude is not a feeling we wait for. It’s a practice. A posture. A willingness to notice what we’ve been given and respond in kind.
As adults, happiness becomes less about what we acquire and more about what we contribute. Service changes its meaning when it isn’t transactional. When help is offered without expectation. When the intent is simply to ease another person’s burden.
That’s often where happiness shows up, not afterward, but in the act itself.
Mark Twain once said, “The two most important days in your life are the day you were born and the day you find out why.” For many people, that second day involves someone else.
Happiness may be our first instinct. But meaning is what sustains it.
I explore these ideas of meaning, gratitude, and presence more fully in What Matters.
Authenticity and the Version of Ourselves We Trust
The version of ourselves we return to again and again is usually the authentic one. Not the most impressive version. Not the most polished. The one that feels steady.
Personality is what others notice first—our habits, our voice, our way of responding. But underneath that is something less visible. A quieter center shaped by values, temperament, and what we care about when no one is watching.
When we move away from that center, communication becomes strained. We may still connect with others, but something feels off. Conversations require more effort. We adjust ourselves to fit the room instead of speaking from it.
Often this happens when we quietly doubt our own value. When we’re unsure whether who we are is enough, we start looking outward. We borrow tone, confidence, or energy from others without realizing it. Mirroring can help us belong for a moment, but it slowly pulls us further from ourselves.
Authenticity isn’t about self-improvement. It’s about self-recognition. It’s the moment we stop managing how we appear and begin trusting who we are. That shift doesn’t make us louder or more certain—but it does make us more at ease.
And over time, that ease becomes the version of ourselves we want to return to.
The Selves We Outgrow Without Noticing
Sometimes I look around and realize the people I once felt aligned with no longer feel like peers. Nothing dramatic happened. No conflict. No clear break. Just a quiet sense that we are no longer standing in the same place.
When that happens, the first instinct is to look outward. To wonder where my people went. To ask where I might find them now. But there are no clear answers, only the feeling of being slightly out of step with the room.
Over time, something shifts. We stop measuring ourselves by who others are becoming and start recognizing who we are becoming. The comparison fades. The roles loosen. What once felt affirming, being one of them, no longer carries the same weight.
There is a strange loneliness in that moment. But there is also relief.
Because the work is no longer about belonging to a group or matching a version of ourselves that once fit. It becomes about finding steadiness in who we are now. Learning to sit with that. Learning to trust it.
Outgrowing people isn’t always about distance or disagreement. Sometimes it’s simply a sign that we’ve stopped borrowing our sense of self from the room we’re in.
And when that happens, even the uncertainty feels lighter.
The Quiet Changes We See Only Afterward
Change rarely announces itself. Most of the time it moves quietly, almost unnoticed, until one day we look back and realize something inside us has shifted.
We grow in small ways first. A different way of responding. A calmer thought. A moment of clarity that feels simple but stays with us.
These quiet changes often matter the most. They shape how we see ourselves.
They help us understand what we value. And they remind us that growth isn’t always loud. Sometimes it is slow and steady, finding its shape only in hindsight.
When we pay attention, we begin to notice the subtle ways we are becoming someone new.
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Wisdom & Understanding
We often confuse understanding with wisdom.
Understanding sees clearly; wisdom acts with clarity.
One explains the world, the other transforms how we live within it.
Understanding allows us to see what’s really happening—how things connect, what causes what, and why events unfold the way they do. Wisdom, however, is what guides our response to that clarity. It’s what turns insight into compassion, and reflection into movement.
Understanding recognizes truth.
Wisdom lives it.
You can understand a person’s pain, yet wisdom reminds you when to speak—and when silence might heal more deeply. You can understand your own emotions, yet wisdom helps you rise above them rather than be ruled by them.
Understanding sharpens the mind, but wisdom softens the heart.
Understanding observes patterns; wisdom interprets purpose.
Knowledge fills the mind.
Understanding shapes’ perspective.
Wisdom refines the soul.
In the end, wisdom isn’t found in knowing more; it’s found in living well with what we already know.
Are We Missing the Meaning of Life by Thinking Too Much About Death?
It’s easy to let our thoughts drift toward what might come after this life—what it means, what it fixes, what it promises. But when we stare too hard at the afterlife, we risk missing what’s unfolding right in front of us.
Life happens here: in small moments, in ordinary days, in the people we meet who frustrate us, challenge us, comfort us, or quietly shape us. Everyone carries their own story, even the ones we label as difficult or strange.
When we focus on this life instead of the next one, something becomes clearer:
meaning shows up in how we show up for each other.
It lives in patience, in kindness, in small gestures that ripple outward. Maybe the meaning of life isn’t waiting on the other side of death—maybe it’s created in the way we treat people while we’re here.
Understanding and Wisdom
We often confuse understanding with wisdom. Understanding sees clearly; wisdom acts with clarity. One explains the world — the other transforms how we live within it. Clarity without compassion can stay abstract; wisdom begins when understanding finds purpose in action. The two work together — one illuminates the path, the other walks it.
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The cars young men drove in the 1950s and 60s weren’t just machines — they were identity.
For a generation coming of age in a world that was expanding faster than they were, a car became the closest thing to instant fame. The right car didn’t just get you around town; it announced who you were before you even stepped out of it.
With the right engine rumble and the right shine, you sat a little taller. You weren’t just driving, you were somebody. Confidence came with the keys. Attention followed. And in that small world of high school parking lots and weekend cruising, cars were social currency.
And then there was the GTO. ( Gran Turismo Omologato )
If you had a GTO, you weren’t just “cool.” You were beyond that — a local celebrity in your own orbit. The name itself, Gran Turismo Omologato, carried an almost mythic weight. Today we’d call it the G.O.A.T. — the Greatest Of All Time. Back then, you didn’t need hashtags or followers. You just needed horsepower.
Looking back, the desire was never really about the car.
It was about belonging, identity, and the feeling, even for a moment, that you mattered.
And maybe that’s why memories of those cars still linger: not because of the chrome, but because of who we were when we drove them.
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When the Heart Leads: Kindness, Action, and Living Without Regret
Following your heart isn’t about chasing emotion or ignoring reason. It’s about paying attention to the part of you that knows when something feels true, even before you can explain why. We often try to talk ourselves into or out of choices, but the moment emotion begins steering our reasoning, that’s usually the heart speaking quietly, but clearly.
Listening to the heart doesn’t always guarantee success in the traditional sense. It may not lead to more money, more recognition, or more comfort. But not listening to it almost always carries a cost. That cost shows up later as regret, or as a faint sense that we lived slightly out of alignment with who we were meant to be.
Kindness works the same way.
It’s rarely the result of a purely intellectual decision. Real kindness comes from something more profound, from the heart, pushing us toward action instead of hesitation. Doing nothing isn’t neutral. In many moments, silence or inaction can wound more than we realize. And sometimes, even well-intended action can feel cold when it’s done without heart.
So we’re left with an uncomfortable question: Are humans naturally kind? Or do we become kind only when we choose to act from the heart?
When we respond from that deeper place, we aren’t rising above our humanity, we’re stepping fully into it. Kindness isn’t something extra we add to our lives; it’s something that reveals who we already are at our best.
A few voices have said this more elegantly than most of us can:
“The heart has its reasons of which reason knows nothing.” — Blaise Pascal
“Kindness is the language which the deaf can hear, and the blind can see.” — Mark Twain
“Indifference and neglect often do much more damage than outright dislike.” — J.K. Rowling
“We are made kind by being kind.” — Eric Hoffer
“My religion is kindness.” — Dalai Lama
At the end of the day, following your heart and practicing kindness are not separate choices—they’re part of the same way of living. One guides the other. One strengthens the other. And both help us become the kind of person we won’t regret being.
The Power of Gratitude: A Reflective Nonfiction Perspective
Gratitude is more than a feeling. It’s a practical way of seeing the world that invites us to pause, notice, and appreciate what’s already meaningful in our lives. When we slow down long enough to recognize the people, moments, and experiences that support us, something in us shifts.
Gratitude doesn’t erase difficulties, but it helps balance them. As psychologist Dr. Guy Winch notes, gratitude grounds us, especially in times of uncertainty. It softens negative thinking and reminds us that life is a mix of challenge and goodness.
Gratitude also reconnects us with others. It strengthens relationships, encourages compassion, and gives us healthier reasons to grow. When our motivation comes from fear or comparison, we burn out quickly. When it comes from gratitude, our efforts feel steadier and more sustainable.
Seen this way, gratitude becomes a soft skill — one that can transform how we understand ourselves and the world around us. And often, it’s the small practice of noticing what we already have that makes the most significant difference.
The Human Side of Leadership →
Leadership isn’t a job title or a personality type. It’s the quiet ability to influence, guide, and elevate the people you encounter, coworkers, friends, teams, or communities. Real leadership strengthens connection, clarifies direction, and creates momentum.
Strong plans attract people who genuinely want to help, but leadership is never a solo pursuit. It’s the art of inspiring others so that shared goals feel possible and meaningful.
This sub-section under the Life Development tag explores leadership from a human-centered perspective, less about command and control, and more about awareness, empathy, and growth.”
Core Leadership Characteristics
Integrity — Doing what’s right, even when it’s inconvenient.
Delegation — Trusting others with responsibility and room to grow.
Communication — Speaking clearly, listening fully, and creating understanding.
Self-Awareness — Knowing your strengths, limits, patterns, and impact.
Gratitude — Recognizing contributions and reinforcing what matters.
Learning Agility — Adapting, improving, and staying open to new ideas.
Influence — Guiding others through credibility and example, not pressure.
Empathy — Seeing the human side of every decision.
Leadership is the steady act of helping others see what’s possible and walking toward it with them.
Gratitude proceeds happiness and it is required if we want to achieve it →
Gratitude is the quality of being thankful. It results in being willing and ready to show appreciation for and to return kindness. It brings a warm feeling of thankfulness towards the world or specific individuals. The person who feels gratitude is thankful for what they have received and does not constantly seek more.
Gratitude helps people feel more positive emotions, feel more alive, express more compassion, relish good experiences, improve their health, deal with adversity, and build strong relationships.
We will still have negative thoughts, but gratitude will help balance them out. “Gratitude is an emotion that grounds us and is a great way to balance out the negative mindset that uncertainty engenders,” said Dr. Guy Winch, author of the book Emotional First Aid.
The process of feeling grateful compels us to reflect on our relationships. It makes us feel closer and more connected to others, which helps motivate and sustain our efforts at self-improvement. We won’t be able to maintain our efforts for self-improvement without the help of others, and we will fail when we have the wrong motivation. When we're motivated by negative emotions, it is nearly impossible to sustain efforts to change. Is gratitude a soft skill?
Ask a person who is not grateful for the good things in their life, and you will find an unhappy person, but if you teach yourself or that person to understand and learn gratitude, it will become a life-changing soft skill.
“Gratitude turns what we have into enough.” – Anonymous.
The duties of the Coxswain are to provide leadership →
The end of the boat closest to the start line is called the “stern,” and the opposite end pointing toward the finish line is called the “bow.” Coincidentally, the rower closest to the boat’s bow is called the “bow seat.” The seats are numbered from bow to stern, and the bow seat is called the “1 seat.
The leader sits in the stern and is called a Coxswain and is the athlete that steers the boat, calls the race plan, and motivates the rowers. Driving the vessel is done by making minor corrections in the rudder’s direction and ensuring all rowers are equally engaged.
Each rower is numbered by boat position in ascending order from the bow to the stern (except single sculls).
The stroke seat is the most important of the eight rowers. That individual can get everyone behind them and the engine room in a solid rhythm and get them to use their power efficiently. They also have a significant impact on the mentality of the boat.
In an eight-rower boat, each person has one oar—four on port and four on starboard. If one side pulls harder with their oars in the water than the other, the boat turns and tips. The boat tips if one side's oars are raised higher than the other. Every paddler has to drop into the water at the same time.
Self Improvement individually is likely not the key to success for a team; instead, team leadership has more potential value. If one person surprises the others, thinking they are only indulging in self-improvement, they can hurt the team, but the leader can direct coordinated improvement.
Being overwhelmed with stress is a message to find out why you are stressed? →
When you feel pressure, your body will send you a message and let you know. The message is referred to as stress. The pressure comes in a variety of ways. Feeling overwhelmed and unable to cope with life events is felt emotionally or even in your physical responses. You will think you can’t cope with what you are facing, and mental health suffers.
Many different situations or life events can cause stress. It can be triggered when we experience somethingnew unexpectede, threatens our sense of self, o feel we have little control over a situation.
Feelings of Stress Include:
afraid
angry
aggressive
sad
Anxious
defensive
irritable
frustrated
depressed.
